Wednesday, January 18, 2012

lights of the season


Temple Square

Saturday after Thanksgiving we bundled the kiddos and with hot cocoa in tow headed downtown to kick of the Christmas Season.   The kids loved the refuge in the basement of the visitor's center (Rowan was especially wild, she freaks me out in a crowd...fast and cute a dangerous combo).  We rode trax, saw good friends from California (Corene, Rick, Athen, and Crew)  and toured the Grand America window display with them.  It was the highlight of the night to unexpectedly run into and catch up with good friends (even with the mayhem of my munchkins).

Zoolights
I bought a groupon to Zoolights. In the fine print I found out it was only good for a few days in early December.  Of course those were the coldest days of the season.  So yes, with a balmy 19 degrees not including wind chill I took my 6 wk old, and the rest of the crew to enjoy the magic of Christmas with the animals.  Well, 90% of the animals were no where to be found due to the extreme temperatures.  We sought shelter in the reptile house were we got warm and saw a few creature friends.  It actually was fun.  Josh threw down for a carousel ride which was the highlight of the night for the kids.  Amazingly everyone survived without getting sick but I don't know if it will make the cut to be a tradition.

Santa and Lights at Thanksgiving Point

We went with our good friends the Wests to see Santa at Thanksgiving Point.  The line took over an hour.  The kids were in good spirits the majority of the time.  However, when it came to picture time, this is what we ended up with...
waiting with hailey...before the tears

I think the only thing that tops it is that Josh thought it was so funny he sent it out to 600 past clients and I'm not even kidding.  I only found out because I was at Lissy's when she recieved one, love you dear,  next time that might be one to run by me ;).

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Dr's office

I felt like a super hero mom.  Pushed a double stroller, while holding the infant carseat with Noah holding on to my pocket to cross the street and wait 25 minutes to get bloodwork done.  There were no meltdowns and although we got a few looks, I tried to have the kids presentable enough that we didn't look too pathetic.  I am a mom of four littles, you do what you have to do and somedays it actually works out :).

Sunday, January 1, 2012

deck the halls 2011




Have I mentioned how I love being at home.  I always have.  Add the twinkles, smells, and music of Christmas and I am one happy little elf.  This year we got our favorite tree ever (thank you home depot)  it lasted the whole season as fresh and beautiful as the day we brought it home...the day after Thanksgiving.  Decorating this year was so fun, the whole family took part.  Noah and Clara already have favorites that they remember from years past and I love their joy in finding something they had made.  Clara had a big meltdown when it came to undecorating the tree,  I couldn't blame her.  I let her keep a few special ornaments on little tree in her room for a few more weeks.

Monday, December 5, 2011

giving thanks 2011

The eve of thanksgiving I spent baking with Lissy.  Nothing like baking with your sis to make you feel a little piece of home for the holidays.
 

my boys

I even did name places!
watching football

Part of the prep team.

Stika Family + a new friend - Josh's crew

Thanksgiving morning I made the kids watch the Macy's day parade for a little bit and eat Chex mix (seemed more like a Broadway Review...would it hurt to show a marching band NBC?)  Some traditions must be past down.

I actually got all the kids ready, in hopes for a successful family picture.  Daddy tried to get the kids to watch a little football.  Clara and I set the table and anxiously waited for Josh's family to come.

Grammy Pat prepared most of the yummy food.  I had to laugh that the "round the table" picture didn't show any of our immediate family,  maybe next year one of us will make it to the adult table :).


Best shot of the kids I got on my iphone. They clean up pretty well.  I love my cuties, I'm one lucky mama.

Josh's dream came to true for a turkey bowl in his very own front yard.  (He was dreaming this up even when it was just a pasture with piles of dirt and rocks around.)  The game was competitive as it could be for having Grandma in her socks (not that it slowed her down), and little kids on each side. Although, it took a little round the group up, when they were all out there, everyone had a fun time.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

catch up


 I know, I know its already December but I couldn't let these memories pass by undocumented.  Halloween came just a few days after Ben, Clara and I came home.  Josh took the girls out to a few homes and Noah went on with the neighbors to fill his bag. 
minnie
pink cowgirl



fireman (handmade by Grammy Pat)

The first snow came and went. I had this huge "ah ha" moment. Rowan was having difficulty walking around the snow. Go figure,  last year for the snow, Rowan was a 8 month old baby wasn't walking and I was nursing her, now I'm nursing a whole new baby!!



My mom "visited"  (aka helped...tend, launder, cook, wrangle) a few times that first month.  So I could actually take a deep breath and enjoy my Ben!  (Clara is always asking me to hold, "that sweet, little buddy from your tummy".  He has captured all of our hearts!


Friday, December 2, 2011

Clara's Hospital Experience

Sunday night Clara went to bed not feeling well.  By midnight she was at my bedside with a fever and a barky cough.  I tucked her in next to me thinking it must be the croup (we have had it a few times so I am pretty confident of the symptoms).  I few times in the night when she had coughing spells the strider was bad enough I woke Josh, had her cuddled in a blanky to go outside and breathe cold air, she did settle down.  In the morning I got her an appointment with my pediatrician.  This was the fifth appointment I've had with the kids in the past few weeks and I really didn't want to go day before delivery but I felt it was for the best. (miracle #1).
9:00 am  Josh takes kids to the airport to pick up Aunt Becky (planned arrival for help for my planned induced delivery on Tuesday)
I take Clara in to the Pediatrician.  They give her a breathing treatment in the office, diagnosis was croup, just as Dr. H is leaving the room I mention that Clara is holding her spit in her mouth not wanting to swallow. She pauses and just to be safe rule out a dangerous infection asks us to head over to a hospital in Riverton for an x-ray.

10:30am We're all back home planning all the last minute things to get done before the baby...pack, shop, make kids schedule, etc.  Call comes in from Dr Hornyik, she doesn't like the x-ray and says I need to take her up to Primary Children's Emergency for more evaluation with specialists, she mentioned that she had already called and they would be expecting us. (Even with that warning I didn't think anything more than some consultations a prescription and head back home. I give quick good byes and warn Becky this may take a few hours due to traffic and wait time.)

1:00pm-2pm We are settled into an ER room.  I told the events of the night and day about 5x to different doctors and nurses.  They bring in oxygen and intabation supplies and tell me to keep her calm and call immediately for any change in breathing.  The xray shows a constricted airway probably caused by an infection and all agree she will need surgery to have in scoped, cleared, and tested.  I am trying to be calm but I'm hearing words like intensive care, intabate,  put on ventilators, all very common on children this age with type of surgery in the airway. As a side note:  I start having real contractions pretty consistently.

3pm-5pm Liss and Mark pick up mom from the airport.  To think we were joking about all the help I was going to have for this baby, just another miracle of being watched over.  Mom starts timing my contractions about 3 mins apart.  Josh gets to the hospital and he and Mark are able to give blessings to Clara and I.  Clara and I had been in the room for hours no food or drink, she was this sweet, weak cuddle bug who sat on my lap and didn't let me leave her to even use the potty.  Dr's are worried about my consistent contractions and make arrangements for me to be checked at the U hospital.

I head over to the U of U hospital (somewhat attached).  I show having regular contractions 2-4 minutes apart but when they checked me I hadn't really dilated.  They let me go and wanted to check me again in an hour or so.  I was back just in time to take Clara up to surgery. 

The doctors talked us through the procedure and gave us a very likely outcome of a child her age needing to be intabated due to have the aggravation of the instruments. (Which meant intensive care for a week and a week more in the hospital).  Josh and I walked her to the yellow line and hesitantly handed her in the arms of an amazing nurse.  (Another little miracle to have Clara not upset to be handed into the arms of a stranger!)  We sat in the waiting room with a few other families eagerly waiting for news.  Dr. G came to the waiting room.  She was officially diagnosed with bacterial tracheatis.  She did great and wasn't intabated. He showed pictures of how closed her airway was, SCARY!  Josh was in the room when one of the doctors described the procedure to other doctors and said that he has only seen about four cases like this (in his long career) and described what was pulled out as thick bubble gum well over a foot long.  The other doctors seemed to think it was really cool! "No way, really?"

This is where I hear everything else second hand because I am at another hospital giving birth to baby Ben. I was comforted knowing she was never alone Josh, Liss, Grandmas (Peg, and Pat), and Becky worked round the clock. Josh hopped back and forth between hospitals, Liss and Gma Pat with Clara, Beck with Noah and Rowan at home, and Gma Peg where ever duty called.


Clara was then placed in the Pediatric ICU  where she recovered for days,  NO FOOD for days, needed to stay calm during all the prodding to not aggravate her small airway (or she'd need to be there much longer). I f you know are little girl is prone to meltdowns at least once a day so this seemed like the impossible. Yet another miracle. The thought of her in the hospital for 2wks seemed unbearable.  However, she did amazing. She didn't speak a lot the first few days and would just whisper out, "I'm hungry...can I have food?"
  
What an experience! At the time it, with all the unknowns, it was pretty traumatic.  With each day it felt as if we had the best case scenarios work out for this difficult situation.  We both eventually got home and got to share what our different "hostable" was like.  I brought home a darling baby boy, Clara brought home bags of special blankies and toys from the hospital (and aunt).  Nurses have sent cards since she was home.  Primary Children's Hospital is a very special place.  Clara had some very help watching over her.  I definitely felt my prayers were answered.

Friday, November 11, 2011

benjamin august

A Birth Story...
I got home from Primary Childrens with mom at 12am.  I left Josh at the hospital with Clara in PICU.  I packed for the hospital and exhausted from the crazy day and was actually able to sleep for a few hours.  I woke at 5am (my scheduled induction was 6am) instead of showering I played/visited with Noah who woke with my puttering.  I was grateful for those few moments to fill him in on Clara and ease his worries about everything.  Mom and I drove to Jordan Valley Hospital got me settled and then I sent Mom to help Becky with the kids at home.  It was odd being there in labor alone.  Josh and I have a picture of us together on the way to the hospital for each of the other children,I missed that.  I got a call from Josh just before they came in for the epideral where I could hear Clara calling and crying for mommy. It broke my heart.  The tears just flowed for a while.  The nurses and doctor new the situation and were extra kind to me.  I called Mom, who was already trying to make her way back, to come.  Lissy made her way to switch Josh and be at Clara's bedside.  I felt much better with Mom and then Josh at my side.  The updates of Clara were better and I felt lifted and watched over.  I started making name lists boy and girl (Lucy Maude or Lucy Kate/Thomas Patrick or Benjamin August were topping the list).  I had been slowly progressing all morning until the last hour before delivery I went from a 4 to 9.  Three contractions later.  HE was born.  I think I saw first and shouted "boy".  Then Josh gave a big cheer (he was so hoping for another son).  Mom and Josh both said that the cord was wrapped around the neck twice.  The delivery went well, and besides some extra numbed, I felt good too. There was a lot of quiet alone time at the hospital as well, that let me have some special time with my baby boy Stika.  I let Josh make the official decision of the name and we wavered for a few days.  This experience was one of the most difficult and faith building of my life.  Even with a few weeks perspective I see how much our whole family was strengthened, boyd up by the prayers and service of so many.  I also learned that as I wanted to be there for each child, there are times when I can let go and let others help, and the kids may even be better off for the experience.   

My beautiful ben,
He is a delight.  He sleeps. He eats. He snuggles. It's only been around 18 months since we had a newborn, yet it amazes me how little, fragile, soft they come.  Ben's disposition is so sweet, I pray it continues. As much as you try to prepare siblings for the new arrival its not until their here that you see how it will go.  Noah and Clara have been so loving, helpful, and interested. Rowan's ship has been rocked and although she can be very sweet with Ben, it's been a difficult adjustment that just needs some time.  I still end most days feeling like I have not met all the needs of each member of the family but hopefully they feel loved.
After Delivery
Cousins...2wks apart
Sun Bathing to help jaundice
After first bath
First bath, not loving it.

Aunt Beck brought Storm Trooper Noah to visit Mom and meet baby brother.

Numbers came back very high so he was on lights for a few days...what a trooper!

Sibling Love



My little mommy in the making.